during misery, I wrote this

How am i supposed to be remembered if the other's value mean more than mine? Even in my head. Even in their heads. No matter if i please them, i'll only hear 'thank you'. But how could i worry about me when feeling the world collapsing? Just takes one instant after that one and the only one who is knocked out is me. Like they would depend on me... They do, their happiness do, but when does the time of mine come? Nevermind. They can't hear me any longer: I sank a long time ago. I'm in deep deep 'misery' now, if that's the word that best describes this lack of happiness, this lack of luck.